Salvation

"you can't learn what you feel you already know". It's been over 14 years battling this same sin, I actually believed at some point I had it dealt also some times I gave up and allowed it rule 😞.
In the barracks where my family resides we lived among all other families with so diverse believes, religion and spirituality. The third child among 5 and the first male kept me as a well noticed child, quite notorious for my sneaking out to play soccer but also for my humble appearance. I lost my innocence when I went over to our neighbours hu had daughters older than me and same age. I was actually on an escape from dad's whip when I heard run inside and hide then I did and it all changed for me that day. I got in meeting them seeing a movie where a man was being intimate with a lady, I had no idea cause I have never seen it b4 so I just stayed on my sit and then I saw the ladies ages 17 and 12 taking off their clothes then I knew I was in the wrong place. Tried leaving but the held me back and reminded me of dad's whip and then that was how I lost my innocence and it all began 😞..